
A Message to Rowan
A letter to my son before he enters this world

Was working with a new therapist tonight. They were doom scrolling (TikTok/insta) while they were by all professional and cultural standards, supposed to be deeply engaged. I realised this, while looking into their eyes, deeply engaged with them, seeing their reflection very clearly in their glasses. I had to stare for a bit to be sure. To ready myself for the awkwardness. We gracefully confronted the issue. Relationship over as it was blossoming. Align work & life? Hard. Body & mind fit for black diamonds? Damn hard. Trying to do both, where full presence comes for free.

A letter to my son before he enters this world


Let me look again. Take the glasses off. No wait! He’s leaning back into your arms. Maybe one day you’ll get another chance. Another moment.

I'm trying to re-wire all my socials through my blog. Back in 2019, I 'quit social media' and other than posting pictures of my family, I've primarily followed that directive.


My mind doesn't pretend to deserve this. Saved by grace? I'm lucky.

What was the most powerful moment in your life/career?

Life in Utah is magical. I need to post more updates. I'll try. As I type this I'm consider a return to 'social media' as I'm in a much more healthy p