
A Message to Rowan
A letter to my son before he enters this world

Destroyed love again. Pushed so hard, rode the edge and caught a lip. Bite down hard with no mouth guard and let it bleed. Like Judas, twice betrayer today. Scared on the hill, cowering in panic, of who knows what. But you were there to pull me up. Punched your fist through the sludge that we tried to bury. That’s my girl. Don’t dwell on my mistakes. My complaining, mansplaining, thinking I’ve done it all, do it all and I can barely put together a coherent story. The recipe for the good life. Ride the ledge, catch the lip and turn it upward. Grimpons babe.

A letter to my son before he enters this world


Let me look again. Take the glasses off. No wait! He’s leaning back into your arms. Maybe one day you’ll get another chance. Another moment.

I'm trying to re-wire all my socials through my blog. Back in 2019, I 'quit social media' and other than posting pictures of my family, I've primarily followed that directive.


My mind doesn't pretend to deserve this. Saved by grace? I'm lucky.

What was the most powerful moment in your life/career?

Life in Utah is magical. I need to post more updates. I'll try. As I type this I'm consider a return to 'social media' as I'm in a much more healthy p